I don’t know about you, but I personally hate the term “New Year’s Resolution”. Maybe it’s not the actual term that bothers me, but more what comes with it. I feel as though these resolutions have lost their worth, as they almost never are followed through (at least for me). They start strong, but fizzle out to nothing in no time at all. This year I’ve decided to change my tune a little bit. I’ve decided to slowly but surely work up to my goals, beginning at the first of the year, rather than expecting myself to start radically on a new path overnight.
My mom asked my sisters and me this year to pick a word for 2017. A word we may want to strive to live by. A word we want to define the coming year. The word that I chose was “rebuild”. As we all know, the year of 2016 was horrible for me, from start to almost finish. It was as if a wrecking ball swept in and annihilated me. It knocked me down to almost nothing, and now I’m left to pick up to pieces; to rebuild myself from the ground up. In the year of 2017 I want to redefine myself in multiple ways. I feel that I have the opportunity now to start from scratch and create a new and improved version of myself. I’ve decided to look at this opportunity as a privilege that not everyone is given. So, here I go.
I want to be fit and proud of my body. I want to work hard to become stronger and faster. I want to be able to look in the mirror and love what I see. In no way at all am I truly unhappy with my body now, but the reality is that I’m not strong or fit; two things I strongly desire to be. Not only do I want to see and feel the physical changes of being active, but I want to feel the emotional and mental benefits of it as well. Working out is a natural medicine that relieves stress, anxiety and even depression. I have no doubt that I can use activity as an emotional outlet of sorts, and work to continue to better myself naturally. This is why I have started running and working out again, and it feels damn good.
This leads me to my next goal, which is nourishing my body using diet and nutrition. It’s so easy for me to fall into the habit of eating poorly. I wouldn’t say that I have a bad diet by any means, but I could stand to eat more veggies. I tend to eat out often, which not only leads to an empty bank account but a not-so-healthy diet. I love me some fried food. I also got into a routine of starting my day with Starbucks. I’m not the kind of girl who can drink her coffee black, so naturally I would get the most sugary and fattening drink on the menu. As of the first of the year, I decided to almost fully eliminate coffee, soda and alcohol from my diet. I will however occasionally have a cocktail or glass of wine. Treat yo’self. I believe whole-heartedly that feeding your body nutritious and healthy foods can be a game changer, and can lead to not only physical improvement, but emotional and mental stability as well. And we all know I’m all about improving my mental health, you can never try too many things.
Last, but certainly not least, is my most powerful and important of goals. This year I am going to live. I am not just going to survive another year on this earth. I’m not just going to push through. I am not going to suffer each day, waiting impatiently for it to end so I can hope for a better tomorrow. I am not going to dread each morning that I have to face another day. If there’s anything I have learned from 2016, it’s that health, happiness and the ability to live life to its fullest is a privilege. One that not everyone receives. I will take advantage of that, and truly relish in the moments. I will stop to smell the roses. I will stay up too late, laughing to tears with my closest friends. I will snuggle and hold my baby extra tight. I will wake up early to catch the sunrise and sit with the peace of the morning. I will adventure more, and soak in the beauty of all things nature. I will be kinder, more giving and more considerate. I will be a better friend, daughter, mother, sister and person. I will cherish every sweet moment that I am healthy and here, and I will be present within them. Life is a precious fucking gift and I will remember that each and every day. Happy New Year, all.
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